Sunday, August 22, 2010

Dead Until Dark

In my short lifetime I've had dear friends and family die. I've also had classmates and acquaintances pass. When I look back I can even remember people that I had a strong disliking for lose their lives. A death from someone close to you, regardless of your personal feelings towards them, hits home so to speak, even if it only bothers you by showing a lack of your own invincibility. In the book Dead Until Dark, when there was a situation where someone lost their life, it seemed that there was such a down play that it really didn’t make a difference in the ending of the story. For instance, Sookie’s Grandmother dying. You can build a whole character off of how she responds to her death. Instead the death is passed over with barely any remorse. My point is reiterated when only a couple days after her “gran’s” death, Sookie tells Bill to take her into that room where she proceeds to lose her virginity on her late grandmother’s bed. I mean she put new sheets on the bed but her grandmother’s smell was still in the damn curtains for god’s sake. Maybe it was a feeble attempt by the author to portray Sookie’s accent into adult hood; moving her from a child’s bed to a grownup room, losing her virginity, not having to sleep on a pretty princess bed spread, but as I stated before, it was a feeble attempt at best.

The other two instances I didn’t find as troubling, were the Rats and Sookie’s Great Uncle. Obviously Sookie and the Rats weren’t the best of friends but I still found it troubling the way they were murdered and the murder scene made to look like a tornado hit. On another note the tornado made me wonder just how stupid the police in her small town really are. Back to the point, that killing, despite the circumstances, made Bill a murderer. There is no way to argue the contrary.

More than any of the murders committed in the novel, the murder of Sookie’s great Uncle tore me in two. On one hand this old man was a pedophilic pervert, which in my opinion is the worst form of scum on the earth; on the other hand he was an old man who on most accounts was, for lack of a better word, innocent. Sookie told a bad story to the wrong person and the next morning the man is sleeping with the fishes. It is exactly as Sookie put it; it’s like dating the Godfather.

Sookie seems to get over all of these deaths that are very close to her relatively fast; the death of her Grandmother blowing my mind the most. She even states in the book how much worse she felt after her cat died as compared to after her innocent fragile grandmother, who, if you remember, would wait up for her every night to make sure she got home safe. If you haven’t noticed I found that part somewhat depressing. Sookie probably used all her grandmothers clothing as toilet paper after she got done have premarital sex on her grandma’s bed.

Despite my nitpicking, I enjoyed most of the book, I just find that I have a gift for writing as long it’s bordering the morbid or I get to complain about it. Another complaint that I have with the book is, as I said earlier, Bill is a serial murderer. Regardless of the circumstances surrounding the murders, Bill is a cold blooded killer. All of his murders were premeditated and if he was human he would be on death row. In spite of Bills guilt he is allowed to roam the nights free and go about his business mainstreaming in this rural southern town in Louisiana to pursue his love interest. That to me is almost a tragedy in itself.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Anita Blake

I really enjoyed reading both of the Anita Blake volumes. They were both really edgy and I thought it was funny to see the sexual tension in the animations rather than just reading about them. I found it to be a rather quick read, maybe a bit too quick for my liking. Besides the confusion I felt at times from not knowing how the dialogue went from one scene to the next and from the contradictions between the scenes and the dialogue, I found it to be neutral. Unlike Fledgling and Twilight I didn’t know where I sat with it. I definitely liked Fledging, and I knew after reading Twilight that I didn’t think very highly of it, but after reading Anita Blake I felt that I might as well have not read it. I usually like it or hate it but I didn’t feel anything towards Anita Blake.

I liked that the book was done as a graphic novel because I don’t think that the sexual tension would have been as evident otherwise. I don’t know if my next point helps or hinders my view on Anita Blake but, I haven’t read a comic book in quite a while. The last time that I was really into reading comics was when I was just a kid. At times I felt almost nostalgic reading in this comic book style. That is until I came across a shower scene or a half naked man. I can’t say that any of the homoerotic nature of some of the scenes made me uncomfortable, but I didn’t see how it bettered the story at all. It reminded me of the scene in Fledgling when Shori’s soon to be new symbiont mentioned that he didn’t want a man as his Ina because the feeding was to sexual. It was just a small connection that stuck out to me.

I tried to do the reading without the scenes for a couple pages and then went back to read them over with the scenes on the page versus the ones that I had made in my head. Most of the dialogue was straight forward but Anita would be talking a big game and I would expect to see some kind of sinister smile but when I saw the scenes it was her with a scared look on her face. I found a lot of the scenes to be contradictory to the dialogue. If you just read the dialogue you would think that Anita is a tough, kick ass, hard core vampire killing woman, but the scenes say otherwise.

Anita has a tough exterior throughout the whole book, but I do like that you get these little insights into her fears and thoughts. Whenever she’s with one of the older vampires she is afraid of she talks to herself saying that she’s never been so scared in her life. She gets in these 500 year old vampires faces she doesn’t know why she made that decision as she’s doing it. Anita is also afraid of the other vampire bounty hunter that she has to do business with. Anita says all the time that if it comes down to it she knows that he would be able to kill her. The fact that she does give you this inside information into her life makes her more human. You see that she is a bad ass but you know that she has fears as anyone should when dealing with vampires.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Fledgling

Fledgling to me was a roller coaster. My nerves and conscience were on edge for the first 50 pages or so. Everything that I’d learned about the sacred morals of sex (if your Catholic then it’s more like the absolute evils of sex), was doing a 180 on me; I just couldn’t tell why. I know I didn’t do a step by step rethink of my principles, but somehow by the end of the book, I was ok with a grown man sleeping with a woman in a 10 year old body. In the beginning I found it absolutely disgusting. After the sex scene I was nauseous. Slowly but surely, as I made my way through the book I became desensitized. Octavia Butler accomplished something with her writing that made me question principles that I’d learned at a young age. I’ve never questioned those ethics in my life; what could? I can’t say that I consciously asked the opposing questions that would break down the walls of my, said ideology. I believe that I made myself accept it based on wanting to finish the book. There was a film on TV that I was watching, it was an HBO film about a young girl discovering her body and becoming a woman. She ends up being touched inappropriately by her male neighbor; she baby sat his son. I wish I could tell you about the rest of the film but, I had to turn in off before I threw up on the floor. Butler went head to head with sexual taboos and came out the victor.

The scenes where sex is taking place become sexy and hot by the end of the book. A power is given to Shori that is recognized. She has a sexual prowess by the end that is unrivaled by most of the characters in the book; male and female. She becomes a sexual figure and from our discussions, it seems that we all accepted her as one. Judging by the family units that they had, I would have thought Stephanie Meyer had a hand in writing fledgling, with here Mormon background and all. The weird unit didn’t discriminate male and female, (Shori didn’t discriminate, others did), black and white and Shori loved them all. It seemed that she had strongest feelings for her first in both sexes. Theodora and Wright seemed to be the drug of choice, but Shori didn’t mind going elsewhere for food. She enjoyed others but would always compare them to Wright or Theodora.

“He smelt delicious but not as appetizing as Wright smelled.”

I don’t know if it has anything to do with a sexual/ lose your virginity thing but that’s what I see in it. Grant it, Shori wasn’t a vampire virgin before Wright, but she wasn’t able to remember her symbionts before him. So it seems that she lost her “virginity” and has that attachment to him. All the Ina feel that way about their first. In Shoris’ fathers’ house, one symbiont explains to Wright how lucky he is to be chosen as her first. I guess you always remember your first. Wright is what is known in some scientific circles as a “stage 5 clinger.”

I didn’t bring up this question in class because at first I thought it to be more of a joke rather than an educated question in need of discussing. The more I think about it I have to wonder what Butlers meaning for doing it was. I've come to believe that no matter what an author puts in a book, or a director into a movie, down to the smallest detail, it has some meaning in the story. If it didn’t then there would be no reason to add it to a novel or script. Basically there is no such thing as filler. The point that I'm referring to is Shoris' age. As compared to Wright, who is I think they said 23, Shori on a visual level is about 10 years old, way too young for Wright. Shori if you count years is 53, way too old for Wright. Either way you look at it, in a world that’s fair and just, there is just no way that they could be together. They somehow end up together despite all odds. I don’t know if love knows no bounds or if it knows no age is the point trying to be put a crossed, but personally I find it provocative that we don’t seem as bothered by the latter situation. There’s about 13 years difference between how she looks and how old Wright is, but there is about 33 years difference between how old she is and how old Wright is. Minus the connotations that come with being a 10 year old (I know, a lot of subtext to subtract) Shori is the real cradle robber in this story. She’s the perverted older woman hitting on guys her sons age at the bar. She is known in most circles as a Cougar.

Please tell me your opinions and comments on that last point. I find it extremely interesting and would love to go further into it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Walker vs Fledgling

“Like women all over the world, I had mastered the art of transforming myself into what I
thought each man would fall in love with.”

Not at all in control of each affair, but very much in control of the masks I put on for each man,”

“I learned how much of myself to reveal”

“Instinctively I knew I wanted more pleasure and more freedom, and I intuitively knew I deserved and could get both.”

“When Bryan said I was too black, I straightened my hair. When Ray said I was too young, I added four years. For Miles I was a young virgin, nervous and giggly. For Jacob I was a self-assured student of modern art. For Robbie I was a club girl. I was Kevin's steady.”

“I am proud that I did not stay in relationships when I couldn't grow. I moved on when the rest of me would emerge physically or intellectually and say, Enough!”

The beginning of this article confuses me because I feel Walker cannot find or doesn’t know who she really is. What led her to question who she is? She doesn’t change because she is unhappy, she changes because the men are unhappy is what she lays out. To me that statement alone portrays her weakness. Only in the beginning of the article does Walker show this weakness. I want to say that her early years are when she is fighting to rid her mind of “social rights and wrongs,” that were battered into all our minds as we grew up. The comfort and boldness from the bedroom doesn’t follow us into the world usually because we see how people are looking at us. By the end of the article I believe Walker completely. I am liberated from the catholic church at last.

I believe that the message being put across is beautiful and strong and it makes me proud to be a person and a human in modern day. I'm touched by what Walker says and it’s liberating to anyone who can grasp the concept. Yes, I believe that social taboo’s and government and religious” no no’s” are set in place to do nothing but keep people in line and make a profit. I also agree with Walker on the point that a person should have the right to their body without ignorant people and religious nuts stamping a stigma on them. I believe that this article relates to the protagonist of fledging, Shori, in many ways. For instance, the book itself goes head to head with sexual taboos known worldwide and by the middle of the novel Butler casts of the shackles of social guidelines and somehow we don’t see the relationships between characters as mortal sins and act that turn your stomach any longer. The fight to win over the beauty of sex and sexuality is won many times over in “Fledgling” and is beautifully depicted as strength in the Walker article.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Twilight. not for me

I feel bad for anyone who ends up reading the “Twilight” Saga. It may seem like I had an already preconceived opinion of the book based on word of mouth, which is partly true, but I tried my best to go into this read with a completely open mind. I honestly was looking for the phenomenon to sweep me up and carry me off into a world of Edward vs. Jacob graphic tees, mythical creatures and pre-teen obsessions. Sadly I'm still here in the real world with a paperback copy that I wished I only had borrowed.
The reason I feel bad for anyone who reads this book is because I think this book takes advantage of the universal insecurities that come along with being a teenager. Insecurities such as, not being comfortable in your own skin, feeling like you are ordinary (cookie cutter complex), being the new kid in school, not being able to dance, being clumsy, and gym; everybody hates gym. Then after all the adolescent problems there are some adult problems that everyone looks forward to such as love triangles and deciding whether you will be killed anytime soon. Be it by some drifter or your boyfriend; both being equally likely.
Stephanie Meyer takes these common insecurities and then exploits them in our protagonist, Bella, to make us feel all warm inside. She uses Edward Cullen to make all her dreams come true. Bella thinks that she is not pretty. She describes herself as a person that is lean but soft, not athletic and constantly is in awe at how Edward Cullen was attracted to her and not someone else, because of how normal and ordinary she is. Like any gentleman trying to get into a ladies pants, Edward Cullen proceeds to insist that she is amazingly beautiful and proves it by stating that he read every boy in schools mind her first day there and they all had crushes on her. If only I was a post pubescent teen girl, my heart would be melting. He counters her cookie cutter complex by letting her know that she is the only person that he has ever come across that he cannot read their mind. This just tickles her to death. He ends the book just like they do in any teen movie, by romantically putting her feet on his and waltzing through prom. If you’ve ever watched all those high school movies that came out in the late ‘90’s and early ‘00’s, especially football movies, you will notice that they usually don’t end at graduation, which is where high school truly ends. Most teen movies end at prom. So even though they were only juniors, they naturally had to end up at prom.
All of these tear jerking moments pale in comparison to the love interest of the book. Edward Cullen is simply gorgeous; almost divine in his angel like beauty. Not to mention he’s the modern day bad boy, leather jackets to go along with his high speed driving and charm; a James Dean incarnate. Nothing like a sensitive guy with a dark side to get any woman’s engine revving. The one flaw that he has is does nothing but make him an even more attractive character. Edward Cullen’s dark side is what seals the deal for anyone. Not much can make a person attractive like being a “fixer upper.” I cannot understand the ambience of meeting someone who is “broken,” and trying to change them. No one would be turned on by an environmentalist who works a 9-5 as a lumberjack, especially if they were pouting about it 24 hours a day.
All in all, the book was a pretty easy read, and minus some contradicting views within the book, it wasn’t terrible. I can’t see why these books have taken the post Harry potter world by storm; the real meat of the story must take place in one of the later installments because I am definitely not hooked yet and I have no intentions of reading the rest of the saga anytime soon. Stephanie Meyer must be doing something right because simply put the Twilight Saga is a Phenomenon. Just the rights to all the merchandise from the books is more money than I could fathom. The movies are doing extremely well at the box office and are bringing more fans to the original books every day.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Hada...

Hi

Hamada EL Tatawy, but everyone calls me Hada on account of Hamada being to hard to pronounce. I'm an aviation and aviation business major with a meteorology minor. I'm not a huge fan of vampires or all the new shows that are coming out about vampires, but I've never really given them a chance. I'd say that I'm open minded but hard to please.

I absolutely love to read. I probably read about two to three hours almost every day. When i pick up a book that I like, I feel like I can't put it down. There have been times I've read books cover to cover in one sitting if they hit the right note. I've been that way since I was a kid. It didn't really sit well growing up because I was really into sports. My teammates would find more books in my wrestling bag then they would gear. It's cliche to say but I've always felt like books are a gateway to other worlds. I can't get enough of em. When I'm finished with a good series I almost feel sad.

What I would love to get out of this class is a bunch of good reading. I love to dissect books and am looking forward to getting into that with this class; I wouldn't mind picking up some writing skills on the way either. I've never read a graphic novel so that's another thing that I wouldn't mind getting some experience with. So far this class seems like it'll be a lot of fun. It seems like it's full of smart people to feed off of. I enjoy our class conversations the most. Lots of good input and feedback; I'm looking forward to.